Home scale: 337lbs
It's been almost 6 months since my surgery. I am down 74 pounds since I was at my highest a couple weeks before the surgery. I have sort of been stalled at this weight for a few weeks now. I guess since I didn't gain anything over Christmas at my families house, that is a good thing.
I know I need to start being more active. I think we are going to get a treadmill...and I am pretty excited about that. Of course we could just go walking since its BEAUTIFUL outside (I live in Arizona). Another thing I need to do is make better eating choices. Since having a smaller stomach doesn't make it so I can't eat bad foods, I still have to make the choice to eat a little bit of something healthy rather than a little bit of something crappy.
I have lost A TON of hair. I have always had crazy thick hair! A few months ago it started falling out by the handfuls. It was disgusting. It has slow down considerably now, but my hair is so thin. I used to be able to only tie a standard size hair tie about 3 times around my hair. Now it's 4 or 5 times before it's tight. Yuck. But...at least I'm not bald and like I said, it's slowed down.
I'm going to make an effort to post more on here. I doubt anyone reads this...but I at least feel some sort of accountability to make choices if I have to blog about it.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Monday, September 30, 2013
GOING DOWN
September 26th: 351.5 (Dr's office scale)
Well I'm down exactly 60 pounds from the 411 that I was at the beginning of June. I'd say that's not too bad for a little less than four months. I had an appointment with Dr. Simpson last Thursday, and he was extremely happy about my results. He says I'm doing wonderfully.
I can eat almost anything now, just not very much of it. I try to avoid breads and starches too much. The one food I can't seem to handle at all is pizza. I've had a couple bites of thin crust pizza a couple times, and I usually end up throwing it up. I find that I'm not very hungry very often, but I do find myself eating out of boredom a lot. Like, if I bring food to my office, I usually eat it all. But if I forget to bring anything, I am usually OK until I get home. It makes me realize how bad it was before to just be eating all the time, because I was bored and eating A LOT more than I do now.
My clothes are getting big. I have some size 30 jeans that I haven't been able to wear for a long time now (they were even a little too big before the surgery), but now my jeans that I have never been able to dry in the dryer if I wanted to wear them; now I HAVE to dry them after a couple wears. That's nice. Most of my shirts are fitting OK, mostly because they were just plain to small for me a few months ago.
No one really says anything about me looking like I'm loosing weight (other than Daron, who says it all the time). I was home in August, and at that time I was down about 40 pounds, and no one said anything. I figure it's because my sisters have been loosing weight too, and they both looked a lot better than me. I didn't tell anyone about the surgery, other than my family and Darons mom. She never says anything to me about looking skinnier, but Daron says she has mentioned it a few times to him. She said she doesn't want to say anything to me because I told her before I had the surgery that I wasn't going to tell many people about it because I didn't want everyone asking me all the time how much I lost, or what if the surgery didn't work, then I wouldn't want everyone wondering why I was still fat. Oh well, I'm not doing it for the recognition, just to feel better and be healthier. Which I am. My ankles do not swell up anymore like they used to (probably mostly because I was drinking a crap ton of soda everyday).
So....only good things to report so far!
Well I'm down exactly 60 pounds from the 411 that I was at the beginning of June. I'd say that's not too bad for a little less than four months. I had an appointment with Dr. Simpson last Thursday, and he was extremely happy about my results. He says I'm doing wonderfully.
I can eat almost anything now, just not very much of it. I try to avoid breads and starches too much. The one food I can't seem to handle at all is pizza. I've had a couple bites of thin crust pizza a couple times, and I usually end up throwing it up. I find that I'm not very hungry very often, but I do find myself eating out of boredom a lot. Like, if I bring food to my office, I usually eat it all. But if I forget to bring anything, I am usually OK until I get home. It makes me realize how bad it was before to just be eating all the time, because I was bored and eating A LOT more than I do now.
My clothes are getting big. I have some size 30 jeans that I haven't been able to wear for a long time now (they were even a little too big before the surgery), but now my jeans that I have never been able to dry in the dryer if I wanted to wear them; now I HAVE to dry them after a couple wears. That's nice. Most of my shirts are fitting OK, mostly because they were just plain to small for me a few months ago.
No one really says anything about me looking like I'm loosing weight (other than Daron, who says it all the time). I was home in August, and at that time I was down about 40 pounds, and no one said anything. I figure it's because my sisters have been loosing weight too, and they both looked a lot better than me. I didn't tell anyone about the surgery, other than my family and Darons mom. She never says anything to me about looking skinnier, but Daron says she has mentioned it a few times to him. She said she doesn't want to say anything to me because I told her before I had the surgery that I wasn't going to tell many people about it because I didn't want everyone asking me all the time how much I lost, or what if the surgery didn't work, then I wouldn't want everyone wondering why I was still fat. Oh well, I'm not doing it for the recognition, just to feel better and be healthier. Which I am. My ankles do not swell up anymore like they used to (probably mostly because I was drinking a crap ton of soda everyday).
So....only good things to report so far!
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Plateauing
July 25th: 375 lbs. (doctors office scale and home scale, late afternoon weigh in)
I can't seem to get below 370 lbs. for the past week or so. I weigh about 370 first thing in the morning and a few pounds more in the evening...but I think that's typical. I'm getting SO FRUSTRATED because I feel like this is the time when I should be dropping a lot of weight...but I'm just stuck!
I had an appointment on July 25th and the doctor was very pleased with my progress. He said I was above average in how much I've lost...but it just doesn't' seem that way! I mean...I can wear some jeans that I haven't been able to wear for a while...but that's about it. My shirts are the same and not feeling any looser. I am feeling VERY frustrated at this. I think I just got my hopes up that I would loose tons of weight in the first few months...but really it may just be only 40 pounds. It's very depressing.
The doctor said now I need to cut out dairy products and stick with fruits, veggies and soft proteins (like fish). That's been going pretty good. I still get crazy full and feel satisfied for a long time after eating. I just wish I could figure out why the weight has stopped coming off...
I can't seem to get below 370 lbs. for the past week or so. I weigh about 370 first thing in the morning and a few pounds more in the evening...but I think that's typical. I'm getting SO FRUSTRATED because I feel like this is the time when I should be dropping a lot of weight...but I'm just stuck!
I had an appointment on July 25th and the doctor was very pleased with my progress. He said I was above average in how much I've lost...but it just doesn't' seem that way! I mean...I can wear some jeans that I haven't been able to wear for a while...but that's about it. My shirts are the same and not feeling any looser. I am feeling VERY frustrated at this. I think I just got my hopes up that I would loose tons of weight in the first few months...but really it may just be only 40 pounds. It's very depressing.
The doctor said now I need to cut out dairy products and stick with fruits, veggies and soft proteins (like fish). That's been going pretty good. I still get crazy full and feel satisfied for a long time after eating. I just wish I could figure out why the weight has stopped coming off...
Monday, July 15, 2013
Pushing the limits
So I've been a little more daring this weekend with the foods I've eaten. Mostly sticking with yogurt and soups, but trying a few other things. I bought some puff corn stuff from the store the other day that Bryan loves. (Sort of like a Cheeto, only airier) I brought some to the movie theater this weekend and if I suck it, it basically dissolves to nothing. I ate some of that and it never hurt my stomach. We went to dinner at Carrabbas and I had the mushrooms off Daron's steak, and that wasn't bad either. I've also eaten a few Pringles...I just chew them A LOT before swallowing. I can usually tell after eating those that maybe I shouldn't have done that.
I hope it doesn't seem like I'm trying to 'sneak in bad food'...but if I didn't have a least a nibble of something different to add variety, I think I was going to go ballistic! What I've really been craving is a salad!! I think it might be a while before I can have one of those...I'm only supposed to have soft/mushy vegetable at first.
I did make a DELICIOUS roasted cauliflower soup last night for dinner. It was different and yummy and totally acceptable as something to eat! But when I roasted the cauliflower for the soup I forgot how yummy roasted vegetables are!! I'm looking forward to moving up to the next 'phase' in about a week!
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Monotonous
July 9th: 378lbs (home scale)
The hardest thing now is that I am getting SO BORED with what I am allowed to eat, and I have 16 more days to go till I can add more foods to the diet! One can only eat so many helpings of cottage cheese and pudding until you want to scream! I find myself not eating breakfast or lunch cause I can't handle another yogurt (which I hate anyway, but it does add a little variety), and then I am feeling really awful by the time I get home from work. I usually get grumpy (bless Daron and Bryans hearts for putting up with me), even though I don't feel grumpy or mad, I just don't want to eat what I can eat so I don't and then, like I said, I feel awful.
I also find myself thinking I should of lost more weight by now....
I know that's probably not true, I mean...about 30 pounds in about 30 days is pretty good. But you get this idea that it's going to be SO DRASTIC and yet I still am super fat and I can hardly see a difference! 30 pounds on your average person would be an amazing difference, so it's frustrating that you can only 'sort of tell in my face' that I've lost weight. I find myself not wanting to tell anyone how much I've lost cause I'm afraid they won't believe cause you can't really see a difference. I know it's time to start working out now too. At least walking at first (I think that's all I'm allowed to do at first).
I am not good at being patient...
The hardest thing now is that I am getting SO BORED with what I am allowed to eat, and I have 16 more days to go till I can add more foods to the diet! One can only eat so many helpings of cottage cheese and pudding until you want to scream! I find myself not eating breakfast or lunch cause I can't handle another yogurt (which I hate anyway, but it does add a little variety), and then I am feeling really awful by the time I get home from work. I usually get grumpy (bless Daron and Bryans hearts for putting up with me), even though I don't feel grumpy or mad, I just don't want to eat what I can eat so I don't and then, like I said, I feel awful.
I also find myself thinking I should of lost more weight by now....
I know that's probably not true, I mean...about 30 pounds in about 30 days is pretty good. But you get this idea that it's going to be SO DRASTIC and yet I still am super fat and I can hardly see a difference! 30 pounds on your average person would be an amazing difference, so it's frustrating that you can only 'sort of tell in my face' that I've lost weight. I find myself not wanting to tell anyone how much I've lost cause I'm afraid they won't believe cause you can't really see a difference. I know it's time to start working out now too. At least walking at first (I think that's all I'm allowed to do at first).
I am not good at being patient...
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
FOOD!
July 3rd: 380lbs (home scale)
For the first month after my surgery I am on a liquid diet and that consists of broths, yogurts (with no fruit), cottage cheese, creamy soups (strained), sugar free jello and pudding, frozen yogurt, popsicles with no fruit...stuff like that.
I was running short of these supplies yesterday so I went to Wal-Mart to re-stock. My car had about 8 cups of yogurt, a tub of cottage cheese, ramen ( I like to cook the ramen noodles in the water, throw away the noodles and add the seasoning packet to the water, I feel like it gives it a little more flavor.)
I was standing in from of the pudding section in the backing isle trying to decide between chocolate and vanilla pudding. A lady behind me says "Ma'am...can I ask you a question?" sure. "Are you getting ready to have a bariatric procedure?" I had one last week, is my cart full of liquid soft foods giving it away? "I'm having one this Friday and I'm so excited" Oh good..... Then she went back to the call on her cell phone informing the person that she had just met someone who had 'her surgery'.
I wasn't offended in the slightest...but I did think she was lucky that I did have surgery... and not just some super fat girl who loved yogurt and pudding :)
10 days before the surgery I did a clear liquid diet. I had protein shakes for breakfast and lunch, and then for dinner I would either have another shake or make some broth. No pudding or cottage cheese or yogurt. It was very hard. I almost killed my entire family on the 3 or 4th day. I did finally get past that 'hunger' feeling, and then it was just mostly getting over the mental side of wanting to eat. One of my biggest things was telling myself that after my surgery I could eat again...it would only be a little...but I would be able to eat. Well, clearly it isn't that way. Yogurt and cottage cheese is hardly 'eating'...and I find myself getting frustrated. The funny thing is, as soon as I eat some pudding or about a 1/2c. of broth I'm really full and don't' want to eat anything else. I just get in these foul, pouty moods where, like a three year old, I complain "I don't WANT to eat broth." So I don't. Then I DO get hungry and grumpier and mean. Finally I give in and whine and eat a little and I feel fine and I have to apologize for being crazy.
For the first month after my surgery I am on a liquid diet and that consists of broths, yogurts (with no fruit), cottage cheese, creamy soups (strained), sugar free jello and pudding, frozen yogurt, popsicles with no fruit...stuff like that.
I was running short of these supplies yesterday so I went to Wal-Mart to re-stock. My car had about 8 cups of yogurt, a tub of cottage cheese, ramen ( I like to cook the ramen noodles in the water, throw away the noodles and add the seasoning packet to the water, I feel like it gives it a little more flavor.)
I was standing in from of the pudding section in the backing isle trying to decide between chocolate and vanilla pudding. A lady behind me says "Ma'am...can I ask you a question?" sure. "Are you getting ready to have a bariatric procedure?" I had one last week, is my cart full of liquid soft foods giving it away? "I'm having one this Friday and I'm so excited" Oh good..... Then she went back to the call on her cell phone informing the person that she had just met someone who had 'her surgery'.
I wasn't offended in the slightest...but I did think she was lucky that I did have surgery... and not just some super fat girl who loved yogurt and pudding :)
10 days before the surgery I did a clear liquid diet. I had protein shakes for breakfast and lunch, and then for dinner I would either have another shake or make some broth. No pudding or cottage cheese or yogurt. It was very hard. I almost killed my entire family on the 3 or 4th day. I did finally get past that 'hunger' feeling, and then it was just mostly getting over the mental side of wanting to eat. One of my biggest things was telling myself that after my surgery I could eat again...it would only be a little...but I would be able to eat. Well, clearly it isn't that way. Yogurt and cottage cheese is hardly 'eating'...and I find myself getting frustrated. The funny thing is, as soon as I eat some pudding or about a 1/2c. of broth I'm really full and don't' want to eat anything else. I just get in these foul, pouty moods where, like a three year old, I complain "I don't WANT to eat broth." So I don't. Then I DO get hungry and grumpier and mean. Finally I give in and whine and eat a little and I feel fine and I have to apologize for being crazy.
Monday, July 1, 2013
One week later.
June 6th: 411 lbs. (doctor scale)
June 17th: 406 lbs. (doctor scale)
Day of Surgery, June 25th: 396 lbs. (doctor scale)
Today, July 1st: 383lbs. (home scale)
It's almost been one week since my surgery.
I was surprisingly nervous going in that morning. I have had surgery twice before this one; one in April of 2010 and then again in April of 2013. I was SUPER relaxed before both of those. Not worried at all. And before this surgery I felt really good and excited about it until I was sitting there in the prep area just waiting. I was SO THIRSTY!! I was actually dehydrated because it took two nurses and finally the anesthesiologist to get my IV in because my veins were so collapsed (and I have the bruises on both hands to prove what a hard time they were having!) I didn't have hardly anything to drink the previous day (my own fault) and then I couldn't eat or drink anything from midnight before the surgery so I was absolutely dying of thirst, and all I could think about was how I wasn't going to be able to drink or eat anything after the surgery and I was going to be thirsty for the rest of my life! (I tend to be a bit overdramatic sometimes) Daron was with me and I just started crying like an idiot. I was worried I was doing the wrong thing and that I was going to die in surgery. Or what if I am ALWAYS THIRSTY like this...or what if...or what if....I was a little crazy. I think it was cause I was hurting from the constant needle jabs and I was nervous and did I mention I was THIRSTY!
I calmed down and was fine when they finally wheeled me away at about 9:15. I just kept telling myself " I am going to go to Disneyland next year and ride a roller coaster that goes upside down". I told the doctor that and he said it was an excellent goal and they are just as fun as they look.
The surgery went well, or at least I've been told. I have a HORRIBLE time waking up from anesthesia. Both times I've had to come out of it before I remember hearing all the nurses and people around me saying "She's STILL here?" and event his last time I remember seeing multiple people come into recover after me and leave before me. I guess I'm just a really good sleeper! I do remember the nurse saying my blood pressure was a little high, so it took a little bit to get that down. But eventually I was awake enough that I had to get up and walk to my room. I wasn't in very much pain, thanks to the wonderful medicine they pumped into my IV!
The doctor said I would probably be staying overnight; but sometimes people feel good enough to go home. The nurses kept asking if I was planning on staying or going home, and I had just assumed I was staying. But Daron couldn't stay with me (he doesn't do well away from his Darth Vadar breathing machine and his own bed) and I HATE being alone, let alone all night in a hospital, so I started to entertain the idea of going home that nigh. I was doing pretty good pain wise, the worst part was the gassy pain from being pumped full of air for surgery! It did feel better to walk around, so I did that quite a bit. My only probably was I kept throwing up...and that hurt like none other!!! My poor newly sewn on stomach and sore abdomen was not happy when that happened...and it happened 3 times! It got to be about 9:00 and the surgery center is a good hour away from our house, and poor Daron was so tired (and poor dog Franklin had been alone all day) so I decided to buck it up and check out. We left about 9:45
I pretty much kept up on the Vicoden the next day, but from Thursday on I haven't had any. I haven't been in really much pain either, other than a little un-comfortableness from drinking too fast or maybe taking one too many bites of pudding/cottage cheese. I did have some crazy heart burn the first few days, but that has passed. I am on a liquid diet until my next appointment with Dr. Simpson on July 25th. I can have almost any liquid (nothing with sugar or carbonation), pudding, broths, strained creamy soups, cottage cheese, Jello, fruitless yogurts, frozen yogurt... Then hopefully after that next appointment I will be able to do soft vegetables, fish...and other things I can't think of. I'm planning on joining Darons gym in the next couple weeks in order to avoid too much extra flabby nasty skin. We'll see.
June 17th: 406 lbs. (doctor scale)
Day of Surgery, June 25th: 396 lbs. (doctor scale)
Today, July 1st: 383lbs. (home scale)
It's almost been one week since my surgery.
I was surprisingly nervous going in that morning. I have had surgery twice before this one; one in April of 2010 and then again in April of 2013. I was SUPER relaxed before both of those. Not worried at all. And before this surgery I felt really good and excited about it until I was sitting there in the prep area just waiting. I was SO THIRSTY!! I was actually dehydrated because it took two nurses and finally the anesthesiologist to get my IV in because my veins were so collapsed (and I have the bruises on both hands to prove what a hard time they were having!) I didn't have hardly anything to drink the previous day (my own fault) and then I couldn't eat or drink anything from midnight before the surgery so I was absolutely dying of thirst, and all I could think about was how I wasn't going to be able to drink or eat anything after the surgery and I was going to be thirsty for the rest of my life! (I tend to be a bit overdramatic sometimes) Daron was with me and I just started crying like an idiot. I was worried I was doing the wrong thing and that I was going to die in surgery. Or what if I am ALWAYS THIRSTY like this...or what if...or what if....I was a little crazy. I think it was cause I was hurting from the constant needle jabs and I was nervous and did I mention I was THIRSTY!
I calmed down and was fine when they finally wheeled me away at about 9:15. I just kept telling myself " I am going to go to Disneyland next year and ride a roller coaster that goes upside down". I told the doctor that and he said it was an excellent goal and they are just as fun as they look.
The surgery went well, or at least I've been told. I have a HORRIBLE time waking up from anesthesia. Both times I've had to come out of it before I remember hearing all the nurses and people around me saying "She's STILL here?" and event his last time I remember seeing multiple people come into recover after me and leave before me. I guess I'm just a really good sleeper! I do remember the nurse saying my blood pressure was a little high, so it took a little bit to get that down. But eventually I was awake enough that I had to get up and walk to my room. I wasn't in very much pain, thanks to the wonderful medicine they pumped into my IV!
The doctor said I would probably be staying overnight; but sometimes people feel good enough to go home. The nurses kept asking if I was planning on staying or going home, and I had just assumed I was staying. But Daron couldn't stay with me (he doesn't do well away from his Darth Vadar breathing machine and his own bed) and I HATE being alone, let alone all night in a hospital, so I started to entertain the idea of going home that nigh. I was doing pretty good pain wise, the worst part was the gassy pain from being pumped full of air for surgery! It did feel better to walk around, so I did that quite a bit. My only probably was I kept throwing up...and that hurt like none other!!! My poor newly sewn on stomach and sore abdomen was not happy when that happened...and it happened 3 times! It got to be about 9:00 and the surgery center is a good hour away from our house, and poor Daron was so tired (and poor dog Franklin had been alone all day) so I decided to buck it up and check out. We left about 9:45
I pretty much kept up on the Vicoden the next day, but from Thursday on I haven't had any. I haven't been in really much pain either, other than a little un-comfortableness from drinking too fast or maybe taking one too many bites of pudding/cottage cheese. I did have some crazy heart burn the first few days, but that has passed. I am on a liquid diet until my next appointment with Dr. Simpson on July 25th. I can have almost any liquid (nothing with sugar or carbonation), pudding, broths, strained creamy soups, cottage cheese, Jello, fruitless yogurts, frozen yogurt... Then hopefully after that next appointment I will be able to do soft vegetables, fish...and other things I can't think of. I'm planning on joining Darons gym in the next couple weeks in order to avoid too much extra flabby nasty skin. We'll see.
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